I'm Getting Divorced: Sorry if you found out on facebook

First of all, I have to share this 22 that I got at lunch today. The past 24 hours have been the worst of my life. I think I told someone last night that if I never had to have a day half as bad as this past one for the rest of my life, I would feel blessed. So when I placed my order at Macallister's today and was handed the magic 22, I was thinking that things were looking up.

Sunday afternoon, the King told me that he had been talking to a buddy at work and was thinking we should do a trial separation. *BAM* Um, I'm sorry, what?! Yes, it's apparently just that easy. One minute I think I have such a blessed, happy life, and the next I'm being told that my world is shattering. I have taken this whole week off work and really dedicated myself to being the perfect wife and showing him what he would be throwing away. 13 years together, 6 years of marriage, a pair of the best friends ever. We have had countless really good conversations, but yesterday he made it clear that he did not want to be married anymore.

I'm in an ok place today - much better than yesterday. The previous 4 days were spent in this limbo land - I knew I couldn't take off work indefinitely, and could not keep up the perfect wife routine for the long term ;) Today I have clarity about what is ahead for us. I'm going through the divorce checklist because I can unequivocally say that I have given him every chance, every push, every encouragement that he was making a huge mistake. He was not interested, so at this point I am just giving him what he wants.

It sucks

Sorry for the facebook book *BAM*. I have not slept in the past 5 days, have not really eaten well the past 5 days (ABBA accused me of going scarecrow last night *yikes!*), and I'm just on caffeine, alcohol, and adrenaline rush. I'm not really thinking clearly :(